Progress & Favorites #1

I think I'm going to do these sorts of updates every few weeks! With mommy/wifey duties, new job, school, training and eating all the time it's hard for me to keep up with blogging. But, I do love it, especially to be able to look back on to read current feelings and help inspire others in any sort of way that I can. 

I've reached over 10,000 views from allllll over the world! America, Serbia, Germany, Japan, Canada, Australia, Malaysia, etc. It's pretty amazing and THANK YOU for taking time and reading my blogs! xoxoxoxoxo

Prep Update: 

I am about... 9 weeks out now? To be honest, this prep has been the complete opposite of my last. I'm not stressing myself out over every little thing, I told my coach I want to go slow and steady so I don't crash and burn out later, or have a horrible rebound again. I will not step on stage until I'm happy with my complete package- even if that means choosing a later show. However, I am motivated as HELL to make the March 28th one! I'm LOVING training. I may be tired, usually just really sore, and hungry if I think about it too much, but I'm not miserable by any means. I'm enjoying myself and this journey. I'm excited to keep pushing and peeling the layers ;) My coach asked me what my energy level was, 1-10 (10 being highest) and I said 9! Yeah, sometimes I have to really push myself, especially that damn cardio lol, but I can do it. It's all in my head. Mind > matter baby.

Training: 6x a week (heavy weights, no plyos). Cardio: 6x a week. HIIT & steady state. Nutrition: Macronutrient based diet consisting of high protein, moderate carbs, and low fat. I use flexible dieting and hit my protein/carbs/fat/fiber daily as well as micronutrients. 1 reefed day a week consisting of almost double my weekly carbs. I usually have it on saturday nights after leg day!

So, here are my progress photos that I've been sending to my coach. I'm well aware how much weight I put on since my last show and I don't need to feel ashamed or guilt myself further. It happened, I slipped up and ate a lot of delicious foods in large moderations (haha). I still worked out, hard, but you know the saying... you can't outwork a bad diet. So true man. I learned, and I'm moving on and doing the best that I can now. 

slow and steady! trying to maintain as much muscle while leaning out!
*starting weight: 140lbs / <5'2" / bf%: unknown
*current: weight unknown, bf% unknown, still a shorty

As embarrassing as it is for me, I am human... I like to be real with everyone who is actually interested in following my journey. It's not all about the highlight reels for me.. I struggle, I fall, and I get the fuck back up. I have a body type that puts on weight very fast when I'm not careful. I really hope to never go through that rebound feeling again. I know I'm capable of losing it and bringing an even better stage package this year. 

Thank you to everyone who supports me!

Current Favorites:

1. Muscle Pharm Combat Crunch Protein Bars

*Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough & Chocolate Peanut Butter Cup
They also just came out with a cinnamon twist, but I haven't tried it yet. I'm definitely more of a chocolate and peanut butter lover mmmm. These are SO good- The macros/calories, the size, the texture and taste! Anyone that knows me knows I love me some Quest Bars, but TRY these. They are worth it!! They kill my sweet tooth and chocolate cravings and are great for a mid-day pick me up snack or meal on the go. I buy mine through Amazon.
(Macros: 210 calories, 7g fat, 28g carb, 20g protein, 12g fiber)

2. Beef Fajita Flame Broiled, Seasoned & Spiced

I always choose chicken to eat as my protein, egg whites second,  protein powder, then fish last. I love steak, but it's usually more pricey and higher in fat. This one I found tastes so great, price was reasonable, and macros are fantastic. I love cooking stir fry with it or making healthy tacos. I buy mine at Sam's Club.

(Macros: 3oz (85g) = 100 calories, 3g fat, 3g carbs, 16g protein)

3. Cary's Sugar-Free Syrup

So I used to use this often, until I heard of Walden Farms (0 cal/fat/carbs) pancake syrup and started using that. But after a while... it just gets old... and expensive for how quickly I'm able to go through it since it's 0 macros everything. So I decided to go back to this because I don't have to order it online, and the macros are pretty damn good for how much you can use. 1/4c is 60ml = 60g and if you weigh while you pour, you will realize you don't even need that much. I only use half of that, so 30g. It tastes way better and for how much I like to make protein pancakes, way more affordable... and convenient. And less chemical tasting.

(Macros: 1/4 cup (60g) = 30 calories, 0 fat, 14 carbs, 0 protein). 

4. Scivation Xtend Intraworkout

I started using this during my last prep, almost a year ago, and have fallen in love with it and I don't think I have gone a day without it! I use 1 scoop and sip on it during my workouts. I honestly feel like I sweat much more when I drink it. But besides that, here are some facts on these BCAAs. 

• Build Muscle • Burn Fat • Recover Faster
• Enhances Muscle Building and Strength
• 7g BCAAs - 2:1:1 Proven Ratio
• Increases Fat Burning
• Helps Speed Recovery
• ZERO Sugar or Carbs

There are a lot of BCAAs out there (branch chained amino acids) but this one is just my favorite. I highly recommend watermelon and strawberry kiwi! If I crave something sweet later in the day, I've also made slushies with it in the summertime :)

5. Liquid Stevia Drops

These are 0 calorie sweeteners, and all natural! I LOVE them. They are a bit pricey for a small bottle, but seriously a few drops goes a long ways! I use them in my coffee, plain fat free greek yogurt mixes, protein pancake mix, etc. Anything you want to sweeten! Plus, they have a whole bunch of different flavors! Tryyyy them. You need this in your life, especially if you like stuff sweet like me :p

I buy mine from Amazon or Vitacost. I linked it so you can see the product details :)

I buy many things from Vitacost! Protein powder, vitamins, Quest Bars, peanut butters and sweeteners. Check them out!

Thats all for today! Have a fit week everyone. Don't give up!!

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xoxo

9 Weeks Out - Cutting Ties

I keep this blog not only to keep track of my progress but to one day look back at how I felt, where I came from and the whole process… to learn, grow, and keep pushing. Not only for myself, but maybe someone else out there that this, possibly going through the same thing and to know they're not alone <3 I know tons of blogs have helped me out...

Saturday, I hit the 9 weeks out mark. It is also the day I finally cut my losses with my coach after 20 weeks. This past week I got sick, my body was continuing to bruise more than normal, literally black and blue all over, I was exhausted, moody, and was on the verge of a break-down. My "bad vibes" were not only seriously affecting me, but I was bringing it around Alex and Sylas. Also, I wasn't seeing much progress and felt discouraged, lost, and basically a big fat failure. I kept thinking, "why can't I do this?? It's been my dream for years, I know I have the heart, drive and motivation... why??." 

I knew comp prep would be hard, but it had been REALLY rough already, for weeks now. I had seen red flags along these 20 weeks with him, and there are very few that know what an actual hell of a rollercoster it has been. I kept telling myself to suck it up, this is how it's supposed to be, I'm supposed to feel this way, stop being so sensitive. After reading many posts- on IG, from Biolayne, & a few other blogs and videos- about "guru coaches," and talking to my two competitor friends, they helped me realize that I was down a very dangerous road and it was, in fact, NOT normal and healthy, especially this far out from comp. I would see other competitors loving the prep process, completely glowing. And here I was, trying to force this happiness to make it seem like everything was fine. 

Red Flags:
1. No communication. I had talked to him on the phone maybe 1-3x in the past 20 weeks, saw him in person twice. I sent in my progress photos and weighed in 2x a week and never really heard anything back. He would text once and a while, but I never felt that he truly cared and supported me. We had a few more miscommunications actually, and I always felt like I was in the wrong. 
2. Brought back old bad habits. It made me consumed with the scale… I would get so stressed out; "did I lose a pound?? Omg, I'm the same weight!" I would try and pee, hop back on, wait a while, not eat, pee, hop back on. If nothing changed, I felt disappointed in myself, even when giving it my all. Not healthy. I've been down these dark paths before, which is what got me into fitness in the first place- the last thing I wanted was to be going back to those habits and creating unhealthy obsessive patterns again. I want to practice what I preach; I tell people the scale doesn't matter- body fat percentage, how you look/feel/perform is more important than the damn scale! He would tell me it doesn't matter what I weigh- yet I had to weigh myself twice a week.
3. Too busy. I remember one day I texted a question, and didn't hear anything back all day, so I texted a question mark again. He later replied- stating that he works all day and is too busy to reply right away. Ok, understandable. He then again later said "I have a lot of clients. I don't have time to entertain every little question everyone has." Well, thanks! As a first time competitor, I have a bunch of questions, big and small, that I feel a COACH, someone who I'M paying big bucks, to explain, if I want. I may know a lot about training/cardio/nutrition, but the reason I hired a coach for this is because I've never competed. I don't know how to get stage ready. 
4. Too low macros & a lot of cardio. I have been on the regular "bro diet" the past 20 weeks with NO cheat days & NO flexibility (except 4 times, which was all last year). What to eat, when to eat, how much to eat. Although some would appreciate everything being laid out in such a way, to do that for the last 20 weeks and then another 9 is not a sustainable lifestyle, even for prep. He did not give me macros to follow, just a strict meal plan. So, I calculated my own macros recently and they were about 1000-1150 with carb-cycling. That is RIDICULOUSLY low. With how much time and effort I put in lifting and having me do 5+ hours of cardio a week… at 12-9 weeks out… No wonder my body started to break down. It sucked. I would see everyone else getting cheat meals for their sanity or getting to incorporate peanut butter and other foods for balance and moderation (flexible dieting). When you are cutting, you're supposed to gradually lower your intake or increase workout/cardio. I can't imagine where I would have been in the next month or two :/ 
5. He told me I should have dropped 10lbs the last 4 weeks.  Wow. Then when I didn't, he proceeded to tell me that he thinks I have a thyroid problem because if I were following his plan 100%, I would be making progress. That is when I wanted to break down and cry. I know I don't have a thyroid problem, but I know that my body needs a better plan to function and be healthy. Also sucks when you give it your complete all and get questioned like I'm in the wrong for not following through. 

These are basically the things that I do NOT want in a coach. I also know the kind of coach and trainer I would never want to be. Maybe he's a good coach to others? Maybe he has his favorites? Maybe he felt I had a long ways to go so was doing drastic measures to make me look good so he would look good? I was scared to cut ties because I've heard the sport can be pretty political- and he is known in the area and I thought that it would screw me later down the road… but you know what, my health and happiness is way more important than that. He probably will not be happy when he sees me at shows. I don't want to create enemies what-so-ever, so I hope things stays professional. 

I just feel so RELIEVED to be done with him and move onto bigger and better things! I've already spoken to another coach, who I'm very very excited to work with! I want someone to want to help me and have my health and best interest in mind. I have not received my plans yet, so until then, I will be tracking my own macros so I do not rebound and throw away all my progress so far. 

Anyways, more updates to come!!! Sorry if this was a huge confusing ramble. It feels great to get off my chest and RELAX!!! I feel FREE ;)

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xoxo